~ nawala na parang bubbles

for the past days, i've been apprehensive about many things:

career
school
friends
inconsistency of things

i don't know, maybe because of the weather (wala lang masisi kaya si panahon na lang). Minsan gusto ko lang tumahimik, mabilis uminit ang ulo, masungit (though normal sa akin ang maging masungit), but things are a little different now.

sabi ng friend ko "quarter life crisis daw"
sabi ko naman " hindi pa ako ganun..." (denial ako, i know)

pero ngayon, i want to focus on this: some of my friends, nawawala pa isa-isa, para bang may sinusundang pattern... may parada?
bigla na lang hindi nag rereply sa text, o di kaya di na nag he-hello sa fb or sa ym.

minsan, napapraning tuloy ako kung ano nga ba ginawa ko. ang ending wala naman.
kailangan ko na bang tanggapin na totoo nga ang "people come and go.. and for those who stay, cherish them" nabasa ko yan sa likod ng upuan sa isang bus. kung sino mang lasing na nagsulat nun... may tama ka nga! Tama ka.

Siguro nga I'm so into my friends, that I feel sad when I feel they're fading... (parang kanta, may fading part)

Minsan nga nakakatakot na mag -invest ng friendship kasama na dun time, effort, emotion and personal info's, kasi parang ganun din e.. mawawala lang din sila.

I also did a little bit of self-check, baka nga naman ako ang may mali... physically wala naman, sa ugali well, i dunno, mabait ako, promise.. wala nga lang sa itsura.

I value my friends, though I am not the physical or lantaran na magpaparamdam about how I care for them but I pray for them a lot. I always looka fter them from afar.

I may be frank and straight forward about my opinion, but that is because I'm a friend, and I don't like "sweets"... hence I don't sugar coat.

Prangka akong tao, and I say my piece when needed. Siguro nga I have this strong personality... pero di ba if you're friends you ahve to accept it, learn to love it.

I live by this principle:

Don't let anyone steal your happiness. If they don't want to enjoy life with you, then just let them be, and enjoy your life without them.

sana nga lang yung umalis, yung mga di nagparamdam.. sana lang masaya sila, having without me in their life, sana nakatulong ako. sana...